So Benji was sick last week and is still getting over his cold, James of course got sick this week and he cut another tooth. I've gotten pretty much no sleep for the past week although I think I did get to sleep 5 hours one night. I am tired, ornery and cranky and I have been mean and ugly to my family. I hate myself for the way I behave. On top of all of that Benji has been consistently pooping his pants. I am going crazy. I don't know what to do to get myself out of this mess. It's weeks like this that make me wish I wasn't a mother. That's horrible and that makes me feel worse about my situation and the way that I am responding to it. Life is really hard this week and I hope I can pull through especially for my families sake. Anyway that's why I haven't posted this week because what do you say when there is nothing good to say.
Afterthoughts:
Well it's been a couple of hours later and I'm feeling a little better about things. Sometimes I think I need a little venting and a little time, but it's still hard when you don't sleep. Anyway enough of that.