It's been a few days

So it's been awhile since I've blogged. I usually like to keep better tabs on things, but things have been happening that I didn't really want to blog about to the whole world, there are just some (well maybe a lot) of things I just don't want people to know about, but I feel compelled to write anyway. I haven't been feeling good the last couple of weeks. I'm pretty sure I was preggo, but it didn't work out (which is okay, don't worry about me, I've had my share). We've been trying for 6 months now to bring another little one into our family, but with my health and continued health struggles it's been challenging, but I kept trying anyway. I am to a point though where I feel like I need a break for my own sanity. My thyroid levels were a little low (going a little hyper) but with a little medication adjustment I'm going to be okay, but also found out this week my Vitamin D levels are super low. I am on a 50,000 iu pill every other day for 2 months to try and fix it. So in the meantime I'll just take a little breather and enjoy my family. There are some things that just put you in the right perspective. I have come to appreciate and love the 2 kids I do have. For that I am truly blessed. Things will work out for us eventually. Some of you are probably shocked because I think I remember saying something about never having another child again after James,(and some days I still feel that way with the little demon that resides in his personality, but oh how I love him) but I am a woman and I change my mind constantly, that's my prerogative. That's who I am, that's who all women are. I don't know why I'm writing this I'll probably be mortified later, that is also who I am, but when you feel inspired you must write or suffer the consequences. All things work out for our good, sometimes we have to pass through the fire to realize it.